There was a point in 2017 when Wanielle’s sex drive seemed to flicker.  She would still have sex with me, but she seemed less into it and it bothered me because I enjoy sex.  A lot.  I could have sex every day and still want more.  Danielle didn’t.  We went from 1-2 times a week to 2-3 times a month.   I didn’t know how to handle that type of rejection very well.  I didn’t want to force myself on Wanielle obviously but mentally and physically my body was being denied the physical act I desired greatly.  So what does the mature adult called Eric Bram do?  He throws a tantrum.  Let’s call it a Testosterone Tantrum*.  What is a TT?  It’s when you let out your anger based on a lack of sex in a variety of ways that are not equal to the crime. For example, if we passed a gas station that charged less for gas than the next one we went to, I would lash out about the prices of gas**.  Or if I went to the market and Wanielle forgot to give me the updated shopping list, I would get angrier at her than I would or should have.  The anger would obviously stem from larger issues regarding a lack of intimacy.  Myself feeling inadequate, feeling unattractive, feeling agitated because I wasn’t able to release my sexual energy with Wanielle, and also just wondering what I was doing wrong.  The night of the gas station incident was the final straw for both of us.   I got really pissed.  I mean really pissed about the gas price and yelled at Wanielle in the car in front of our daughter.  Not my shining moment and afterwards I felt like the biggest cock since Ron Jeremy.  Therapy with Dr. DICK began soon after.   

*TT

**$5.53 vs $5.68